I want to be a prostitute
l want to be want to be a nun
i want to be a poet
i want to be a muse
i want to be mean
i want to be weak
i want to be lost and found
i want to be ugly
I want to be an object
I want to be the world
i want to be nobody
the most famous nobody
i want you not to see me like that
so that you don't suffer with me
I want you to know me well
I want to embrace you when i see you
and when you ask me how i've been
i'll tell you just fine
then then you'll leave
and i'll watch your steps
and feel like my world ends while you step in another
i want to love you from the distance
and suffer what i have to suffer
so that i could find myself
and then i would be able to love you in silence
why can't you give me my dream?
this is my dream
i wonder if you understand
you can call me crazy
sadistic
i don't know
i only know that i can't love you without suffering
without knowing that i deserve you
to feel that i have earned you through me
that you were not given to me by someone
i don't want you from others
i want you from me
you can be from god
i want you from me
i want...
juist to feel that way
that is all